What Are You Going To Do?

On Monday, I found out that I guy I worked with1 who retired earlier this year was diagnosed with kidney cancer a week ago or so. By time the doctors found it, it had already metastasized to the rest his body and doctors were giving him three weeks to live (without treatment) or up to three months with chemo.

Just this morning I found out that he had passed away.

Fuck.

I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again: Death is a bitch, cancer even more so.

My heart is heavy this morning and my prayers are with his family.

I think this also points out an important aspect of life that we sometimes like to overlook: tomorrow could be your last day. We are pretty fragile beings, all things considered.

I once read a report detailing how placing the human head at the top of the body was the worst design flaw ever2 because of how much it exposes a supremely vital organ to all sorts of dangers (falling, impalement, low-hanging ceilings, etc).

I’m not saying that tomorrow is going to be your last day, so don’t act like it is. Just recognize that it could be.

Do I really want to spend all my time working so I can retire and really start living? Shouldn’t I really start living right now, if I’m not already?

Carpe diem; ad proximum convivium.


  1. I knew him by name, but I didn’t work with him on a regular basis 

  2. well, maybe not ever 

4 Replies to “What Are You Going To Do?”

  1. I am so sorry to hear this! 🙁

    What you’ve said in this post is something I’ve been thinking about more and more. Especially as of lately, when it comes to whether or not I want to take a year off before going to grad school next year. It’s not a race- although sometimes I feel like it is, like I need to finish school just so I can get a job, get married and have a family.

    I need to start realizing that I am living now- and I need to stop placing all my ideas of what life is in the future. Which reminds me of a Dave Matthew’s quote:
    “The future is no place to place your better days.”

    Something to always keep in mind, I suppose.

    Once again, I’m sorry to hear about this- I hope your day improves!

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